Deathly Over-Rated

Many things and many people have changed my life in miraculous ways over the years. One of the most devastating things I have done in my life is one of the things that I will always remember. One night I knew I was getting locked up for awhile; my family was more than ready to let me go. I was more than ready to let go. I went to a source I knew, I gave her sixty dollars. We went to the alcohol store she bought me a beat of drink. I went home and I thought it was just going to be a couple of drinks to go down until I was going to go to court, it wasn’t. I ended up drinking a whole bottle of Jack Daniels, and Bracardi Rum to myself a full sixty dollars worth. To make things short I remember passing out, going to the hospital throwing more drink, and going into a play place asking were I could check in. I was in bad shape, they couldn’t get a hold of my mom, my little sister had to answer the phone to the nurses. I refused to give them my name. The only reason they knew me because I was in there for my dads accidents and my over doses. They took a urine sample as soon as possible blood and all of that good stuff. The results came back. I was in and out of this the whole time until I finally blacked out at the finally result of it all.” She isn’t pulling through prep her for I.C.U.” that’s all I could make out. In that moment I went into blackness. When I awoke I want in I.C.U. I was with my mom with I.V.s running through me.

That experience changed my life. I could be brain dead. I could be totally out of now. I am not though out of gods great will I am not. I should not take anything for granted, but I do. I can never forget this experience.