Friday, May 22, 2009
Memories
One thing that I am going to miss about summit is the teachers and the activities that we do as a school.
Memories
Ruffels, Daniel, and I were out side just kicking and I was eating rice. Next thing I know
I got rice in my nose and all over my face. Ruffles had kicked my plate of rice in my face.
Daniel had recorded the whole thing. When I t happened I was hella mad at Ruffels but
after it was just funny. Ima miss the most is all the homies I met like Scott, Alfredo, Josh,
Oscar, Ali, Alma, Stephanie, and Daniel. We had some firme tiempos. This was a kick
back school year.
What I’m going too miss about summit
Summit
In conclusion I love everyone here.
Summit Memories
Something else I liked about summit is that the teachers are cool and kind of care about us because the teachers at my old school, Ogden high didn’t care they wouldn’t care if we sluffed because they knew that we would never change and it was true.
The most important thing I learned was to not get threes because I would get in trouble when I got home and to get seven’s even though we didn’t get rewarded for it.
The thing about summit that I would miss about summit is having something to do and making my time go by faster oh and I can forget my friends and all the plays we went to.
A Tribute to Summit
Summit
Overcoming Challenges
Right now I’m fighting that I wont go homeless I have to move out in less then two weeks I’m scared I wont get a place in time but I get up every morning to go to school and work so I wont. even though I just want to give up because I feel so alone my challenge here is fighting for myself which sometimes that’s really hard for myself . I believe in myself that I can overcome this and this can only make me a stronger person if it doesn’t kill me it can only make me stronger.
Summit High School
Summit High
The most important thing I have learned and struggled with is my math and I hated it and I still hate it but I know how to do it.
What will I Miss About Summit
Summit
Summit
Summit
Memories From Summit
Friday, May 15, 2009
Be strong and know that you can overcome any challenge in life, just believe that you can. When Im faced with probs Im quick to solve or talk about them to whom it involves. Im not the type to give up on what ive started. So just be strong and do what it do, and if your having problems then talk to someone or if that doesn’t work then you have the power to figure out how to help yourself or someone else. The on point that I struggle with is continuing going through problems that we face. Which is why the sayin says. “ If your going through hell keep going”. To some it might mean going through bad times. So stick in there.
A different challenge that I have over come is that I never met my biological dad and the ’dads’ I have had haven’t been the best, but I learned to deal with it and to not feel bad about it.
I Can Overcome Adversity and Challenges
That’s what I’m saying rite now, Life moves on. In my head I see it as if I just tripped but I’m going to get back up. It’s not going to be the last time I fall either. There are many more were that came form. I mean I gave up being able to sleep in my bed, my home, my school, my friends, and be able to sit at home with my family just for one night of partying. One night of partying with my homies cost me 5 months of not being home so far and I still got more time to do. I just keep my head up and say Life moves on.
My Challenge
Stressful days
It all started on a Saturday. I was just kickin back at my house and I decided to go get some money. So I left to Bountiful, when I got there I started breaking into cars. I was looking for purses, laptops, ipods etc. anything I could steal for a little bit of cash. I broke into a car and stole the lady’s purse and kept going. The place where I stole the purse had cameras and they saw me do it. They called the cops and after I broke into another car the cops pulled me over and arrested me, my dad and my grandpa.
I was looking at about 7 years in secure care. When I went to court my judge was mad. Because when I got locked up I was on probation. He wanted to lock me away until I was 21. He gave a chance by sending me to a proctor home in Eagle Mtn. If I mess up here There is no more chances
Adversity and Challenges
Adversity Life
I Can Overcome
What Makes Someone a Hero?
So my point of view is obviously clear that let adversity and challenges over throw you, you will never succeed in your life and you will be setting yourself up to always fail no matter what it is.
I can overcome adversity and challenges
Once upon a time there was this couple that were having problems so one day when the couple was arguing the girl walked away from the argument and mumbled under her breath “I wish someone would fix our problems” then out of no where fidelity appeared and started to fix there problems one by one. After awhile fidelity got so addicted to fixing problems that she started to create her own problems. Till she got a problem that she just couldn’t fix. She started to realize that she can’t fix everything. And that life isn’t perfect.
Proving Other's Wrong
My Hero
My older brother victor is my hero the reason why he’s my hero is because he used too be a trouble maker he was in the system and all that he was always in trouble for some reason my older brother ended up getting some girl pregnant when he was 16 years old he ended up changing his life around once he got out of proctor he ended up changing his whole life around that’s what I wanna do when I get out and that’s why I look up too him because he turned his whole life around and that gives me hope. he’s my role model.
What makes a hero
Or to a person you become there best friend you may never know you just might
Be a hero to some one why maybe because you did some thing nice to some one
You can do a lot of nice things to people but to some just might thing you’re a hero
A hero to me is when I need help on my home work or when I need help on some thing big.
My Hero
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
My Hero
My here is my dad. He always helps me get through any type of problems. He does what ever it takes to keep my whole family up. When I need something he’ll get it. He makes sure we feel good with what we got or he’ll work extra hard to get it for us. I know he sacrifices a lot to keep us happy and well. That’s why my jefe is my hero.
Journal
When it comes to all those other my mother is there for you at all of the times. I love the things that my mother does for others because it makes me think of others. All of the things that I could do to become a hero just like my mother. This is when I can inspirer others to do become a hero. And all the great things that you can get in return.
Specifics of a Hero
My Hero
My mom is my hero I me the stuff she does for me is amazing and how supportive she has been through out my life is so awesome she stuck through thick and thin even at times when I didn’t want to I am so glad I have her in my life or else I would not know what to do
A Hero
What Makes a Hero to Me?
Friday, May 8, 2009
She was created because of this one couple who were having a really bad relationship problem. They wished they could fix there problems then out of no where fidelity appeared and she started to help people fix there problems. She liked helping so much that she started to help every relationship she could.
Isaiah
Isaiah, growing up he knew he was different, see he doesn’t look like his parents his whole family is blond hair with pale skin and pale blue eyes. His parents knew their was something about him but they loved him as if their wasn’t anything wrong with him.
When he turned 16 that’s when his powers started. This kid was trying to fight with him when he tried to defend himself but his powers where so strong he couldn’t control himself. That day he went home and demanded explanation to what was going on with him. His parents told him the truth that there not this real parents his real parents asked them to take care of him because they wanted him to live a normal and good life. Well time goes by he meets his parents his parents are this powerful gods but he chooses not to live their life style. He goes back to his town and helps out with the troubles there.
The New Kingdom
Netzahualcoyotl was really humble the he always listened to his god even when he was disappointed with his orders. One day Netzahualcoyotl has been told that he has to create the human race and everything that we’ve in this days, of course he did it but he also created his wife and he named her “Cuitlahuac.” She was so beautiful that Netzahualcoyotl fall in love with her. They were happy for millenniums and millenniums the rumor says that they still alive in this earth just waiting until their god comes to make pace and the biggest kingdom ever.
Trojan Man
She’s the daughter of Aphrodite and Athena, Hera punished Aphrodite because she was so cocky and knew that everyone wanted too be with her she ended up cheating on her husband herfactice so Hera punished her for cheating and made her became lesbian with Athena, Athena was know as the virgin well not no more ha-ha her and Aphrodite ended up mating Aphrodite ended up becoming pregnant with Athena’s baby they ended up calling her faithful because if Aphrodite was never un-faithful then she would have never had have too have this child cupid ended up disowning Aphrodite as a mother because the fact she cheated on his father ,faithful powers are she is very loyal too people and she is very loving she also has strength ha she’s a beast she can whoop some butt ha.she gets that from Athena she got the beauty from Aphrodite and the love faithful is perfect at everything she does ha!
Bunnyets
Boogie
He is the god of death and misfortune
He wares a big black cloak his face is always covered
He can take form of anything that makes you happy
He likes to play tricks on all the unexpecting people of Greece
His powers are to trick people in to there death
He uses different tricks to take people to the underworld
He lives with Hades in the depths of the underworld
He is the most hated by all the gods on Mt Olympus
Because of all the tricks he plays on them.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Unique Royalty - Body Paragraphs
When I was a child I was always interested in a long line of things. That I know would help me out with my pursuit of music. When I was young I knew that deep down somewereI was about to find my talent. It just had to give it time to show itself then I knew I was ready Its like it was all bound too happen.
Its like it all played in its place so we cut at least 7 tracks that day. Its not a big thing to a lot of people I love doing my thing on my mic and to a lot of people it’s a confusing thing to a lot of them.
I also think that time is to short and that it should be used in a way that is useful to all who desire a passionate thing for music.
If you have a passion for what you like then im totally with it do what you desire to do I was so into my music is a real big thing to me I also think that I can influence others to do the same of what im doing and if they know what so work hard on your music and one day you will succeed.
My First Love - Body Paragraphs
We were on the side of the school the air was so warm after the was over it was getting late and I had to go to tumbling as soon as I walked away I called my best friend Breanna Gabolden she didn’t answer the first time I called, so I texted her and told her too call me as she got my message.
Lovely Girl - Introduction / Body Paragraphs
The only reason I know that I don’t love her is because there was a short girl in my school she was sweet like candy. So this Shorty I loved I rather be with but now there’s no way to get with her probably I just wait to I get her in high school.
Now for real’s the only love that I thought I loved was Monika she was areal good one never made love to her pore life she left to Pomona or corona and she made me cry. In conclusion I still love her and like a burrito ill eat her up.
So another cute mama that I love was Julie Carrillo she live in west Wendover and she has a baby girl but I don’t care and I swear that I want to love her. Now that imp locked up she’s leaving to Mexico imp gone to miss her for the rest of my life. But I promised her that went I get out imp going to get a job and save up and bring her back from México and make life best with her.
One day I hit up the block in California I went with my cousin to watch the movie of the twin towers. Then all of a sudden Monica and I made my move and she said three words the most not accepted in my dictionary. She said no, stop, and don’t It was 7ven see her was like heaven and I thought that I was going to get a lily kiss. That same day I had some coronas and I was like not in the mood for a wining girl friend playing hard to get back then it was like a joy now she got in my nerves. In conclusion that day went I went home I slammed the door to her face.
Let's Get Shot - Body Paragraphs
“I don’t see a parking meter.” I said to my homie tweak he said “what?”
“Quit parkin dogg pass that blunt! And get off my lawn.” And by this point he was laughing so hard that I had to get up out my seat and get it myself. As soon as I took my hit my phone rang. And I started trippin out because the phone was stolen and I had gotten calls from the guy that I stole it from in the firs place saying that they know who I am and that they were coming looking for me so I was trippin out about my family! It was stimppy askin if I had any thing I could let loose for samplers I told him “no dude but I do have some cheepys then he said “it’s for my O.G. and I said “okay meet my at Sharon.” “When?” “Ten minutes.” “Peace.” So I told tweak that I had to roll he got up and said “give me that blunt before you leave.” “Nope” I said “you’re coming with!”
So we got up and I grabbed the keys from his mom’s bed room and we got in the car and went to the school and walked down to Sharon park the showed up about ten minutes late but he had his o with him and he wanted to talk about buying some mass amounts and I could’ve afforded it but it was sketch cause I never met this guy and he’s askin for a pound of chronic so I asked him if he worked for Orem city and he asked if I was askin him for real I said yeah dogg I don’t know you and your askin for a pound of dank. To me that suspect. He pulled out a strap and then his little pee-wee homie stimppy pulled his heat to and tweak suddenly fell he went into shock and then the o.g. his name was spook he asked if I still thought that he was the pigs I said yeah I do so screw you he came closer and said open your mouth again and see what happens so me bein an idiot said awww he put his nine in my mouth and that’s when I realized he was for real just then he pistol whipped me knocked me out and robbed me.
Back Again - Body Paragraphs
All this started out on a Saturday morning, with me waking up to a bomb day with the sun bright as can be. There were no clouds in sight. The first thing I smelled was my dad making eggs for brekfest.
One of my homies picked me up and we headed to
We cruised over where we were going to pick up some bud. When we got there Filero, Travieso, and I got dropped off and the other homies went to get gas. When we got the bud we loaded a bowl. I got greens. I took the lighter and burned the herb. Inhaled slowly and long. I could taste the bud and feel the smoke going in my mouth, going down my throat, and going in to my lungs. I exhaled and I could see the smoke leaving my body. We did this for the next 30 minites.
We dicided to head over to the homie Cuete’s pad. When we got there he wasn’t there but we waited for him. When he finally got there we gave him money to go get beer. When he came back he had two cases of 24 and some pizza. We all started to drink right there right then, everything felt tight. Everyone was just chilling kicking back having a good time. Everyone was laughing, talking and enjoying the day because no one knew that the day would end so messed up.
After we went to a seven eleven where we met up with a homie named Joker. We followed Joker to the kick back. When we got to the kick back we unloaded the beer and headed to the house. Once in the house there was music blasting, beer everywhere, and bud too. I started out by drinking. I didn’t get drunk but I was close. Then I went out and joined a circle were some people were blazing.
Then out of no where I seen a dump load of people rushing towards the porch door. As soon as the door opened all I heard people screaming cops, cops.
Instantly I felt normal. My high was killed. All I was focusing on was running. I took off down a flight of stairs and I could feel my blood pumping. Every heart beat was heard in my head. Once I reached the bottom of the stairs my feet went one foot under snow. That didn’t stop me though. I took off to my left towards a fence. When I put my hand on the fence it felt frozen right away cause of the snow and how cold it was. I still got over the fence in less than three seconds. When I landed on the other side I landed wrong and messed up my ankle and fell. I felt the snow go inside my shirt, shoes, and socks. The whole left side of my body and my face fell in the snow. Before I could get up I suddenly felt tremendous amount pressure followed by pain on my left leg. I let out a loud yell. I then realized that the homie Cuete had landed on my leg when he jumped the fence. When he saw what he did he quickly helped me to my feet and we started running again. Then I realized that not only was Cuete following but Filero was to. Then I felt a little better cause at least I wasn’t alone.
Then after we almost made it to the top of the drive way of another house we saw a bright light. The light was followed by a voice that said “Freeze and come from behind the house. The only thing I said was “BOOK IT” and we all took off running again. When we took off running Filero ran to the right and I and Cuete ran to the left. I and Cuete had just passed the third drive way when I heard an engine. That when I put two and two together and found out the light came from a car. Then after I heard the engine I heard a loud thud. When I turned around to see what was the thud I saw Cuete getting up sp I knew that he had fallen. When he got up we started to run to our left were we jumped a fence. By that time I was thinking I was going to get caught up. I found myself jumping another fence just as fast as I had jumped the other fences. Once I was over the fence I noticed that Cuete wasn’t behind me anymore. Just then I saw the head lights of the car go around a corner and keep going straight until it was out of sight. As soon as I couldn’t see the car I went back and found Cuete up on a porch. He was tripping and he was scared. He finally pulled himself together and was ready to go. We went back to the kick back.
We got back to the kick back and we got in a car with a bunch of people. Once again I was told to drive. I took the wheel and we started to cruise and look for two more of our homies. We drove by the seven eleven were we had met Joker and he was parked there. So we drove in and parked next to Joker. Not even five seconds had gone by and we were being swarmed by like 8 cop cars.
Once the cops were out of their cars they told me to get out. Without thinking twice I put the car in reverse and I stomped on the pedal. I took off and there was a cop that grabbed the car and I swerved him off. As I looked down to change gears I saw a laser. I look up and I see guns pointed at me from all over. Then my door opens and I see the floor coming at my face in slow motion. I feel a cold breeze as I lay on the frozen floor face down. I look to my left and my right I see the homies Filero, Travieso, and Cuete all on the floor too. I see the sirens; I feel the handcuffs biting at my wrist.
I am overcome by sadness. I’ve messed up again. I’ve only been out for two weeks. I know I’m going back to DT. I really don’t know what to think. I’m arrested once again and I could have stopped it all.
Livin' Rough With the Girl of My Dreams - Body Paragraphs
The first time I mat martin is was like god sent her from haven it was like a dram bat I mat her from my homier manual it was his cozen we mat at the skate park she was go at skating batter then me at the time but wan I got to gat to no her I was riley in to her and I thin she now I did case we want to the park and it was cooled and I cap her worm and that is wan she fond out that I like her .there day after I act her out and she sad yes and it was the best day of my life case I that I wood never gat a chants with he case I that she was to good for me but I gas not she sad she like me to but her personality was grate that’s wet broth me on to her she was the one .she did a lot for me she got claws for me wan I did not have nanny it riley hit me wan she got me claws .she got me claws be for school so I did not look like I was home lice it was hard for me to gat money case we did not have that math money it was hard for my mom to gat a good paying job case we guts move to Brigham city it was hard case we were now in town.
Body Paragraphs
But when I got suspended I got home and I got yelled at by my parents and at home I was having fun just kicking back and going to towns and but my parents took me to my grandparents house there I was more in trouble getting yelled at an I had to stay there for a couple of days because I got suspended and at my grandparents house I had to work for two or three days.
At my grandparents house what I had to do was pretty hard but I kind of knew how to do it but what I had to do was sheep herd, feed the sheep, chop woods, take the horse’s out, exercise the horses, help my grandma around the Hogan, it was hard but it was cool because I like my grandparents a lot but I had to do those because I was in trouble and I couldn’t stay home and I did those staff and I had a lot of fun because I help my grandpa pick a sheep and butcher it for dinner.
But after I got done staying at my grandparents house I got picked up by my mom and dad and my grandpa was talking to me about why I did that and told me never to get in trouble or get suspended again but after that I went back to school and there I was missing around again but not that much but I stop because I moved to phoenix and lived there for awhile and went back down to the Rez.
The Day It Happened - Introduction/Body Paragraph
The summer it happened was a summer I’ll never forget as stepped out the door.......
As I got for the day like I usually did I had a weird feeling like something was wrong but after I lit my joint I felt so much better as I grab my gat and head out the door I forget to kiss my mom goodbye I should of! I always did love her to bad I turned out so bad. . It was just a normal day or so I thought when I stepped out the door I saw that car roll up it all happened so fast but in slow motion as the words slipped “oh f***!”
When I Was 13 - Body Paragraphs
So yea when I moved out here I hated
D.T. - Body Paragraphs
The next morning, I woke up with filling like going with my mother too see my older friends. When I arrived, by tens minutes with being their, I heard my friend tell me that a cop was walking up the stairs. I heard a knock It hit my stomach with a hard voice call for my name, and told me that I have a pick up order. The cop suddenly said, to me it was court ordered by Judge Lindsey. He took me away from my family and, friends when given hugs at the last minute.
I arrived with so much aching of fear in my stomach when the officer took me through the doors of fate and death. I walked in saw a lady tell me to set, I sat down and nervous as, I got my fingers printed with ink. They collected my clothes, when being search for any thing that can be confiscated. They put me in a holding cell mean while; they gather the information to put me in the computer. Two hours later they start to give me some soap to wash my hair, and body. Then handed me a suit, and lead me to walk to my unit. Then he told me that this would be my pinnacle unit for a time that I'll being their. I sat down in my first cell that I never seen in my whole life.
I remember that I had woken up with my door open with a noise of clink, clink. That’s when it hit me that this is the life I maybe stinking with for now tell, I can make better chooses in life that I have chosen. This is when; I had gone crazy with my cellmates because I was getting picked on just because I was white. It did not end up well, when some of us are being hurt. With in the first month the judge finally being let go to a foster home. At that time I had made some other bad chooses. That’s when my entire journey began too play out.
D.T. - Introduction
My heart pumping with ears surrounded by sirens around the corner. I fill my stomach falling into sickness. I can fill that I’m in trouble. I’m just a kid living out in this world and walking the streets. Built with so much anger. After an argument after court with my mother.
Cinnamon Hills - Introduction
I was 13 when I went to my first program. It was called Y.H.A, it was located here
What I Learned - Body Paragraphs
The field was wet but perfect to do what we supposed to do. My position was forward together with my best friend. The game started I have to admit that I was nervous but I thought that I was there to do my best and to be dangerous against them. The time came right in the moment I had a ball open to kick it but I didn’t kick I shared the ball with my captain who was open too. I kicked right to his chest; he controlled it with his chest and kicked it right to the goal everyone shouted goallllllll! The goalkeeper couldn’t do anything the ball went to fast. This action led us to the big soccer party in
Finally we were there ready to play our first game. My coach started the game with different players, they were good but not that good as my coach thought.
The other team immediately took the lead I knew that but I couldn’t say anything the coach decided to played with those guys and he was the boss. The first half is over we went to the take showers he spoke to us, come on guys we can make, we have 45 minutes left. He made a few substitutions. He sent me to the field but it was too late we couldn’t make it.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Birth - Introduction
My First Love - Introduction
Friday, March 27, 2009
My Neighborhood - Introduction
Homie Robby - Introduction
He was born November 24.1995 attending Adele C. Young Middle School in Brigham City. He likes to skateboard he was a smart kid he like school he like to draw he was really good at it. His height was a bout 4.5 feet. Most of the sports he did he was real good at them. We liked to chill a lot he was like a bro to me. I kept him out of trouble so he did not get in trouble with me or with his friends and if he did I will yell at him and not talk to him for a week.
Back Again - Introduction
Let's Get Shot - Introduction
Unique Royalty - Introduction
Almost Close to Death - Introduction
Pre School - Introduction
What I Learned - Introduction
I won’t forget that day in the bathrooms when my Capitan says we ready coach and he said wait let’s have a talk. I already told you guys how important is this game for all of us, we were waiting for this moment two years and right now is outside on the field you’ll decided if you want to take it or you want to let it go “he was crying” I can’t do nothing out there but I ‘m sure that you can, it is all in your feet, be proud of you, feel the blood in our hearts. He spoke to us with his heart and that was just the beginning.
When I Moved Out - Introduction
“Yes I only got one box to put in the truck.” I think to myself, today is the day I well be on my own just me and my sister no parents to tell us what to do.
We finish putting are stuff away and organized our apartment by this time its 7p.m. The phone rings, “ring, ring, ring,” it’s a Saturday night, I answer, “hello”, on the other line is marisela, my aunt,
“Hey girl let go to the club tonight I’ll be there to pick you and Laura up in an hour”, Marisela says.
When I was 13 - Introduction
Summer Magic - Introduction
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Music
If I didn’t have music I would probly die?
To funk or to r&b
It doesn’t matter to me
Just something to bump
When you’re down in the dump.
Karma
Karma can be bad
In the day time
Or at night
It doesn’t matter who you are
Karma will happen to you.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Straight Up
Its funny how they can look at you with a straight face and straight up lie, too you,
You thinking that he means every word that he says is true and that he means it.
When he hugs you it feels like something’s missing like the hug isn’t complete
Then later finding out that everything was a lie
It sucks knowing that I'm not the only female that you were talking too its funny how even your own friends told me too watch out because them knowing you had another on the side
It’s funny how you reacted when I told you if it was true you lied on that too Its crazy how a lot of people are out here living a lie its hard too hold a smile when you’re really hurting inside.
But little did you know “she fall for the players but plays the same games”
What is Death Like?
Death is a sharp pain to the heart
Death is a feeling of permanent sadness and pain
Death is when your loved ones have forever gone away
Death is a call to heaven or hell
Death is eternal mansion or cell
Death never will go away
Death you’ll find in your ways
Death is not to be scared
Death is to be in engage
Embarrassed
I couldn’t breath
Light headed
Will he laugh at me
Or will he giggle with me
I guess we’ll see
At least it isn’t as bad a s last time...he he
Is it . . . You!
Stuck in between the two
Its hard too let you go
Me knowing that if I let you go I don’t know what I would be without you
But the other side wants too tell you that your not the only person im loving
I cant break sides because it just don’t feel right.
I still got love for you big love the fact remains that you will
Always be my baby.
I got you on my mind but its hard too let the other go
I wanna tell you its over and that im done thinkin of him
I want too really mean it and that im really trying too leave the other behind
I wanna tell you that im done playing games
And that im dedicated in making a change
But when I look in the mirror im still stuck on playing the same ‘ol games
What Is Love
Is it like a box of chocolates?
Or better yet
Like the taste of strawberries.
Is love in something or in someone that,
Takes you breath a way
And makes your heart skip a beat
Or better yet
Is love an idea we put in our head that we
Think we are truly in love.
What is love?
I think I just like the idea of being in love
And being loved by someone.
Love is like the taste of sweet jolly rancher
Love is something you can’t see but you have
Faith \n the love of someone else.
The Sick Click
Darkness
As beautiful as it is
It all vanishes.
When the darkened fog creeps around me
Fog no, not fog but smock, smock from guns.
Now I realize that I’m at war.
People are dyeing I can’t take it any more
It’s tearing me apart.
I am wishing for death so
I can see that single shining star once more
I'll be missing you
Life aint always what it seems to be
I cant express what you mean to me cuz
Even though your gone, we still cousins
Just Can’t imagine all the pain I feel,
But its kinda hard with you and every one not around,
But in my heart is were I’ll keep you all close to me
Wish I could go back and see you all just one more time,
In my prayers you all are always there for me…
“I Miss you all, everyday”
The Dark Girl
In the dark
There is a truthful
Choose star
She says life is hard
It is dandy like sweet frozen candy
Not ever day is a good day
Like the moon is not all was fool
Finding a new poet is like finding a wild
Flower like find a rare nova
So don’t think life is hard
Life Of Sin
If Enemies Lay Me Down To Sleep
I Pray To The Lord My So He'll Keep
When I Die In This Life Of Hate
I Pray To The Lord My Soul He'll Take
In This Life Of Sin. Lord I Got A Question
Will You Fogive Me For My Sins If I Don't Regret 'em
Cuz Sometimes No Matter How Hard I Try, I Feel No Remorse
I Feel I Had To Do What I Had To Do
But Then Again Maybe It's Just The Old-E Numbin' The Pain
Stressful Life
Up in a peaceful place my
Dad always told me anything
Is possible
and
Not every person has a good day
That week my mom died
And I cried and cried
Thinking of memories of her
Death
Man she really was a star to me
The Way You Make Me Feel
Y sin Te I don’t know what I would do
You’re the one that makes me want to live
Tu eres mi princessa mi everything
I would give up anything to wake up by your side every day
And see your beautiful eyes
Kiss your lips with mine
I want to make you feel important
Give you everything anything you want diamonds todo para te
You got me talking like Niña Te amo
No girl
Has ever made me feel like this Te amo, Te quiero
You got me like????????
But the only thing I know is that
Que Te amo, Te amo, Te amo Niña Bonita
And the only thing I got to say to you is
“Will you be mine” “Priscilla”
THE WAY WE LIVE
WE HAVE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT WE
HAVE TO GO THROUGH JUST TO GET THROUGH
LIFE. I UNDERSTAND WE HAVE TO FAIL JUST TO SUCCEED
ITS HARD TO UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO DO THAT
BUT YOU KNOW THAT SHIT HAPPENS FOR A REASON
AND WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE PROBLEMS THAT
ARE BROUGHT BEFORE US.
LoOsInG LoVe
It’s a feeling of pain that won’t go away.
We ask god why me?
Am I not good enough?
Is there someone else?
Tear fall dripping down my face.
A shocking pain running through my body.
Then I open my eyes hoping it’s just a dream.
If so please wake me up.
I can’t take it anymore.
Fist closed palms sweaty then it hits me.
This is all real this is really happening right now.
You just want to give up and give your life.
Then you think to yourself is it worth it?
Is this the end?
Am I really thinking about hurting all those people for my choices?
Be strong I say to myself.
I can do it.
(Here I am stronger then ever. No one can stop me now but myself)
Everyday is not a good day
Is like finding a wildflower
Choosing a superstar
In the dark night
Is like trying to find the moon
Truthfully
Everyday is not a good day
Your Name
In the sky but the wind
Blew it away
I wrote your name in the
Sand but the waves washed
It away
I wrote your name in my
Heart and forever it will
Stay.
8 Words
now I’m safe
At 99.9%
I fall with a shoe
I get dirty
Then I become Meanness to
Everybody that wears a shoe
I try to look up to a star
But all I see is
Death every time I fall.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
The bestest best friend I ever had
Later we ended up being best friends we came together just like peanut butter and jelly with out you it seemed like something was missing you stuck by me even when I pushed you away you were always one call away when I needed someone to talk too,
You always knew when too say the right things at just the right time. Its crazy how feelings ended up starting everyday you used too wake up early just too come wake me up every morning just too get me up too go too school you always walked me too and from school me thinking that you just did it because you had nothing better too do later I never stopped too think you did it because you liked me until that night when I needed someone too talk too the most and you were the only one that was there that actually seemed too care. The first time you told me you loved me I took it as a joke until I started feeling the same feelings for you I knew I was starting too love you by the way I felt around you I got butterflies every time we hugged every time we spoke too each other
When I got random calls from you and not even having much, too talk about we would sit on the phone for hours talking about absolutely nothing I loved how your so much more different from most guys once you gave me your word you stuck too it.
And for that I love you much more…..
Friday, March 6, 2009
Risk
Is sometimes scared
And some days we are afraid
The risk in my life is intense
And never I am afraid
I met the death and I said stay away
I’d comeback from hell
And I came to the earth
This is my way
And never I’ll be scared!
Call to Wake
What I See
I see a new day
I turn on the lights and look at the mess that is my room…
I see responsibility ahead
I look at my phone….
I look at my wall full of pictures…
I see my past
I see friendships
I go into my bathroom and look at my messy hair…
I see myself before I become me
I look as my buss comes around the corner…
I see education coming my way
I look at denies…
I see a job
I look at the nerdy kid in school…
I see my future boss
I look at the house in which I live…
I see my home
I look my room as im getting ready for bed…
I see rest…
And it keeps goen on and on … vicious cycle you know
I Miss You
when we laughed and played.
I miss will miss you all day .
There is a million of people
but there’s only one of you.
I miss you at night dear.
Even thou we would fight.
There is a million in the world
but there’s only one of you.
STRUGGLE
(Rap chorus) One love to the family, in the OGD, don’t stress or cry, wipe that tear from your eye, keep your held high, things are wrong, you got to stay strong, life is rough, but you have to stay tough, life will get better, this wont last forever, one day, our hopes will come true, but for now, tu sabes, I love you.
(Rap verse) It’s been a long time since I’ve been alone, away from my fam, to my sisters, my mom and dad, but my love is shown, so to my familia, this ones to you, life is messed up but we live it anyway doing what we do, it’s getting real hectic every single day, I guess that gods way, so I get down and pray, and to the higher power I say, I know I did a crime, now paying the time, they’re tryin to hold me down, and all I got to say, is keep on tryin, my mouth will stay shut, so I guess I’m stuck, in the system, to my family my prayers are with them, and all want is them to be free, so I say amen, and get up off my knees, and that very same day, in my dreams, god said to thee, you only get one shot to put up a fight, and to do what’s right, living as a soldier, not looking over my shoulder, I will be home soon, to take care of everyone, who was there for me, and I say this with pride and respect, I love my family with all my heart, I started at the beginning and close to the end,
(Rap chorus) One love to the family, in the OGD, don’t stress or cry, wipe that tear from your eye, keep your held high, things are wrong, you got to stay strong, life is rough, but you have to stay tough, life will get better, this wont last forever, one day, our hopes will come true, but for now, tu sabes, I love you.
And I’m out.
Make love –not war
Fight for the one you love
But not the one you love
Make love when it means something
Not when it loses its means
Hardest moments change to your strongest …..
Let yesterday be a memory
And tomorrow a promise.
Let your hardest moments
Become your strongest moments.
Just One of Those Days
Ya…all good…
It’s just one of those days its about 69 degrees
The sun is shining
Lil kids riddin on their byciklitas
And its all good in my neighborhood
It just makes me want to get up and go go go
Its one of those days no one is dying so no one is crying
Shoes hanging from the telephone wires
Ya jaja just one of those days
Pretty women crossing the street street street
And theirs no better days then this one
Hell no kickin it in the porch with all the homie
Traviso, my brother Pewee, and Ese Lokito its one of those days…..
Amor
All it toke is one look and I was hypnotized, mesmerized by your pretty smile and your Pretty eyes
And I would like to get together to get to know you a little better
I know some things you like and if you like me that’s cool
This gose out to the girl I love you know who you are
Mi princessa la mas bonita del mundo mi nina tu sabes que te quiero con todo mi Corazon I know you got a man but he aint no good he treats you not so good
You say you love him still but dose he mean doin good to you ?
I don’t think so baby,
But Im still here and if I was by your side you would get everything by my side
Ruby’s, Dimonds anything everthing
You want
Yo te amo te quiero and would do any thing to get my you side
Para Abrasarte, besarte todos los dias besaondo tu’s lendos labios
But I can keep on sayin how much te amo
Pero all that dosen’t real matter to me
If I don’t have you by my side
All that matters to me is your yes when I ask you
“well you go out with me nena”
Playing Sports
You should to
No matter what I play
Like b-ball or other sports,
Don’t be lazy just do it
It is good to play for me and you
If u don’t like sports forget you.
Sky High
No lie it feels like I’m in the sky
I look up at the sky wondering how
High it is
Skateboarding
It is my man thing.
I like make skates.
It is like the game.
I men it chill.
You no what I men
I am for rill.
Morning
Fell asleep at night
stung in the heart
like a bad memory.
Woke up in the
morning then woke up in the afternoon
fell asleep at night.
Then realized it was a bad memory!
Its Been So Long
since I seen your face
but it wont be long
Till I see your face
mistakes where made
between us two
am loosen it
or my mind
but I’ll keep it
so I wont loose you again.
The Breakup
You said that you loved me
That you would never leave
Together forever
Once again back in that love thing
Fussing and fighting
Day and night
Now we are friends
And still act like were in love.
Did those feelings really go away?
Were we meant to be together?
Chronic Pain
I have pain in my neck
I have pain in my chest
I have pain in my shoulders
I have pain in my arms
I have pain in my hands
I have pain in my fingers
I have pain in my hips
I have pain in my thighs
I have pain in my knees
I have pain in my shines
I have pain in my ankles
I have pain in my feet
I have pain in my toes
Friday, February 27, 2009
This I Believe
I believe in every things has a purpose in life and if everything that I have gone through if It didn’t kill me I believe in letting it make me a stronger person . I believe in letting go of people that I truly love if it is the best for them. I believe in believing……..
A Poem on Techno
Exited….
……alive…..
….energetic….
Fun…..
Base….?
It doesn’t have to make since …..
You just have to feel it…..
….. its life…
….to me….
You never really know how the people who make the rules are thinking ……
… in not even shur I know what in thinking….
…… and you might not like it…..
……….. What else to do than live life…..
….dance to the music that you are given….
This makes no sense…..
….. hahahaha….
I guess this is why people don’t make poems while listening to techno…
….well at least the first part makes sense …..
Kind of….
You Told Me
I told you I would always be their
You told me you loved me I showed you I didn’t care
You told me you missed me
I wouldn’t have know that you would still be there
I stuck by your side just how I once promised
you told me to give you my love and in return you’ll be honest
The American Dream
Comes to the us for better life,
A better life he believes.
A new beginning.
He wants an education,
He wants the American dream.
They tell him he can get that
Dream with just signing a paper.
A Paper that well get him the dream.
It well even gets him a citizenship.
He leaves to Iraq; he never gets to live the American dream.
He was willing to die for a country that wasn’t his
Just to live the American dream.
A Cry for Help
A Latin girl cries
By using drugs and hanging
With the thugs. No parents to help.
Father wanted, mother died.
She looks for love and all the love
She can get is from guys who don’t care.
All she ever wanted was to be
Loved and for someone to hear her cry.
Her cry was herd one day when she
Died from a drug overdose.
The Dream
seeing death around the corner making me weak in the knees,
with that 9 millimeter to my head putting me at ease,
got me knocking on heavens door asking please,
to give me one more try,
and I got gods reply,
it was to send him to hell,
The floor caved in and I fell,
down to the burning place of doom,
then the devil sent me to the torture room,
I said no, then I awoke from a dream,
and said not no more I have to stay clean,
and do what I do,
only kick it with a few,
enough of this, and enough of that,
it was a message,
that I got to act my age, for my family, and for me.
How could I let all of this go? I may never be over you
I miss your kiss the way we used to lay
You gave me everything I had it my way
Now you say our love was just a fairy tale unreal
Three years together I got to get rid of the way I feel
I wonder could it be the same
Or be a mistake like the tattoo of my name
I always wake up your on my mind
I am so confused so scared so blind
So you can tell me you miss me too
But the more Im in love the more I don’t know what to do
You will always be the girl my sunshine
Ill never stop waiting for that special sign
My momma told me sometimes it would rain
But I never thought it would be this kinda pain…
Nights
The stars tonight are rich and cold
Above my house that vaguely broods
Upon a path soon lost in dark.
My dinner plate is chipped all round
(It tells me that I’ve changed a lot);
My glass is cracked all down one side
(It shows there is a path for me).
My hands-I rest my head on them.
My eyes-I rest my mind on them.
There’s nothing that I really need
Before I set out on that path.
Football
It is fun to play
It is fun to gat slammed in to the ground
It is fun to play in the rain
It is fun to play in the snow
Basketball
It’s good to play, running up and down the court
Treble the ball, crossing people, shooting three’s, nothing bur three ,
But I suck at b-ball but who cares as long as I can play
And know what im doing.
I Wish
I wish you could see what it’s like to pretend to be something your not
I wish you could feel the pain that I feel
I wish you would understand
I wish you would come and save me
You only get 3 wishes
One More Day With You
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight
I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near
I love you more than you know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
And I know that’s what you would have wanted too
I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more we had to say
I know I will see you again
Wise
The wise man chose to make a robot.
To
Helped people to be wiser.
But the robot failed in the since competition.
Then the next day the wise man could not figure out what he had did wrong.
He had prayed and prayed in sorrow staring at the ground and then he noticed he had forgot to put a piece on the robot .
So he said I guess I’m not so wise after all!
Madness
Pain with intense in your body.
Others can’t take anymore.
Pressure, mood, intense.
Frustration comes to a point.
Others can’t concentrate.
Fillings burn.
Memories have no existence.
Difficulty happens.
Questions explode, maybe rumors.
Resisting or refusing.
With no answers.
And unawareness.
Confidence comes.
Approaching fears.
So, make.
MADNESS
NO FEAR.
Trials
And realize nothings left
We do our trials and our time and suffer
Consequences we see the light of the day
And continue our mission and that
Mission for most of us is to stay
Alive we only do two days
The day we go in and the day we get out .
Is That All You Got?
You’re a better person.
Is that all you got
You give other people power to
Control you thoughts and actions.
Is that all you got
You came so far don’t give up now.
You made it so far don’t let it go to waist.
Your future all depends on you.
You want to let go and just give up.
You’re stronger then that!
Is that all you got
You’re already done but yet you just started.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Dependance will be Your Demise
My childhood wasn’t perfection but it had one component that made it tolerable a mother. My dad I’d say lost control of his better will or judgment in to occasions the first was in the mid 1950’s when his parents died; from there he went from place to place trying to find a place to live, he went to orphanage to avoid adoption because if he would have done so back then he would had to change his last name and that was something he didn’t want to happen. The seconded was dew to the witnessing of his girlfriend cheating on him since then the only worthy thing that’s happen to him is the fact that he can have his genes carried on through me. But in recent years he’s devoted his time away from me to try to figure out who he is; that neglect has caused a premature development to occur in my life which has taught me a lesson that to be dependent is to be weak because if my source go’s so do I.
Friday, February 20, 2009
What I believe in is that if I put my mind to it and stay focused that I can graduate high school and go to college on a basket ball scholarship and hopefully make it to the NBA I feel and think that I am that good and I can always get better in what ever needs work whether its my shot, my defense, lay ups, or my dribbling skills and I can always learn new thing from other people.
I Believe in Faith
What I Believe In
The reason why I say this is because I just barely realized it and that it happens a lot in my life. My whole life I just have been doing bad stuff so that’s all I have been getting in return. I would steal and I would get stolen from or I would smoke and I would get into trouble for it later. I hope to do better at this even at life because it hasn’t been getting me nowhere except the same spot, not moving an inch, I am tired of living the same life style I want something in return.